I was breaking down things. Resetting plans. Shuffling things.

I was feeling more centered in some ways and more… grieving the loss with the Shedding. I was in the 8th Stage of the 7th. That 7th of the 7th was… a hell of a challenge more than I thought it would be.

I was growing, feeling magnificent. Dropping back down. Grieving.

Feeling like I was on cloud 9… Dropping back down. Grieving.

I was finally in the right place of “Suffered Enough” and “Tried to care for others” with “Taken advantage of” and “loathing the enabling of others that leads to their own suffering.” And the “I refuse to help myself, but please safe me!”

I woke up a couple days ago and decided to abandon the Teaching — No matter how I looked at it, I couldn’t find a way to justify it. Teaching was Cheating.

I realized my Lecturing even the best of Psychologists did nothing when it was time to Storm Walk. Lecturing and Information Hoarding was nothing.

All the Data and Knowledge I had accumulated and archived? Didn’t mean anything if you can’t Storm Walk.

The Educational System they wanted was a Slave System for Babysitting so working parents could work because the Business Model was so incompatible with Family.

I’de give them the Radical Global Healing Plan. But they would have to build it. Not me. It was the Instruction Manual on HOW to do it. But I wouldn’t be doing it, I decided.

“If you want “X,” then here is what you need to do. But it will only help the Builders and Doers. No one else. If everyone doesn’t become a Builder and Doer, the Plan is useless. If you use the Plan to “save others” you’ve missed the point.”

I was not longer worried about “making it fair” for everyone. I was thinking, “This is what I’ll do for Free” and “This is what I’ll do for Paying Members.” Then, “This is what I’ll do for Elite Members.” And suddenly, I felt like I was getting my value. I felt valued. I felt… Good.

I saw how I could run this thing all on my own. And then, once we had enough people, we would do the Monthly Radical Global Healing Plan and Sunshine Imagination Adventures!

 

Why was I so depressed?

Grieving. I was losing a lot. It wasn’t a set back. Not at all. It was just a massive Shift. And the change would require a massive amount of ideas being dropped. I saw it, to be honest.

I no longer needed any of the additional Plan I had built into place. I could do it all on my own. Game and Play would bring the People together. Then I could build everything else from there.

I was ready to go. I had the Game in Place. It was done. I was ready to finally just… Play.

 

Why was I so sad?